Tuesday, January 16, 2007
#21: A G.C. IS FALLING
Aah.. where am I going?
Walking down this road to a land called 'nowhere', surrounded by everything and nothing, I took time to reflect. It seems that the same tune has been playing on my mind, the same bleak landscape in my backdrop. I thought time would stop for me; it did not. Ultimately, I was left alone in this desolate road without nothing to hold on to.
I'm falling.
I'm falling.
I'm failing.
Well lemme get this clear: i'm talking about my academics.
I realized it's been such a looong time since I last attended all of my classes in one day. You see, I've been more than busy this past month, what with the moving Journalism deadline and the contests to boot. I sort of neglected my studies. And now I'm facing the consequences.
It's really terrible. What was once the enthusiastic, nerdy me now had the guts to cut classes. The horror! And the times that I don't has me attending classes, stupid and clueless: I was left hanging with English's Jean Valjean; my Physics notebook is barenaked. I feel like a neanderthal in ComSci. Don't even get me started with Math. And Advanced Chemistry is... wait. Oh yeah, it's still the same. Ha-ha.
Well anyway this really sucks. I gave myself a lot of internal kickass today. Just ten hours ago I took a summative test with topics I don't even know, and, I found out with horror, don't really care about. And it's not just the tests, mind you. I'm also stuck with projects and make-up recitations. Ugh. And the worst thing of all, is that I had become a dependent. I often ask my classmates, especially Katrina, to teach me this lesson and that, and I think I may have become quite a burden to them. I know their patience won't last forever, so I have to really do something about it.
Tomorrow will be a new day of summative tests, make-up exams, supplementary quizzes, missed lectures and delayed projects. But pathetic as my case may be, I think I can still make it. I'd just think optimistically and motivate myself to blend in to the norm again. Right. I can do this! Limit theorems, here I come!
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Eureka, one of blogging's perks. Just writing about this thing actually made me feel better.
cheers! ^_^
it got me home
6:36 AM
